Someone whom I was following in Twitter went on like ‘At the end of the first quarter in 2010, I have completed x,y,z of what I had planned and couldn’t do a, b. Not bad. In the next three months, I am aiming to complete m, n, o etc’. In short, she seem to set herself certain goals for every quarter and yesterday being the end of Q1 2010, she was reviewing those. Some were professional goals and some of them were personal ones.
Reading that tweet made me realised what I haven’t been doing all these days. Once upon a time, I was also very organised and meticulous in doing things. I had the drive in me to complete certain things (even if it were some silly, little hobby) every month and whatever mundane job I was doing, I was enjoying myself as I had several things to look forward to, besides work. Don’t know where, but at some point in time, I think I fell by the wayside.
At the moment, although I should be able to channelise my thoughts and energy in to several productive things, I am being a lazy bum drenched in discontent about everything and knowingly wasting my potential. This is partly due to certain stumbling blocks that are way beyond my control and partly due to my laziness, which easily forms a vicious circle – causing more harm. I know that I have to push myself out of this rut and do what I enjoy and what is good for me, but they are easier said than done.
To start with, let me stop ranting and try to organise myself a little better. Let me set myself some real, purposeful goals and see if I can achieve them. Let me remind myself that I am not worse off than many people and not feel bad about what I am. Let me wish you a very happy easter, to those who celebrate.