When M.K. Azhagiri is out of the Indian Parliament most of the time, how about conferring him with ‘Outstanding Parliamentarian’ award? Wouldn’t that make some quarters happy?

Of course, I am exaggerating here. But, if this really happens, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. Didn’t we see this few months ago?

Second Leadership Debate

Had someone told me that all it takes is 90 minutes of airtime to change the political landscape of this country, I would have certainly dismissed that as being too hypothetical. But that is actually what happened last Thursday in the first ever Leadership debate, where in the Liberal Democrats leader Nick Clegg came out stealing the show and made the forthcoming elections a real three way race. Having set the bar very high for himself, the second debate that happened in Bristol this week set the expectations soaring high.

While the focus of the first one was domestic affairs, the second debate focussed on foreign affairs. This time around, the pressure was more on David Cameron not only to improve his performance, but also to deliver the knock-out punch and seal the pact with the electorate. Did he do it? No, if you ask me. David was a little more aggressive than last week, little more passionate, but fell way short of winning the debate. Quite expectedly, he stole Nick Clegg’s idea of facing the camera than the audience.

Nick Clegg, in my opinion managed to maintain the momentum and that in itself should augur well for his party. He swapped places with David and occupied the centre podium with Gordon remaining at the same place as he was last week. Although Nick appeared to have an edge w.r.t his stand on European Union, thanks to his earlier stint as MEP, his stand on Trident is very much debatable and in my opinion, should not be an election issue. Rather, that is a decision best left to experts.

Gordon Brown on the other hand was better prepared than his two rivals. He appeared more confident, cracked few pre-prepared jokes and even smiled then and there, although the smile appeared very cosmetic and weird.

In a nutshell, this second debate didn’t create any waves as the first one did. All it did is to give Labour a fig leaf of hope. In my opinion, Clegg maintained his lead in the debate and the other two were the joint second. Newspapers might present a different picture, depending on which stable they owe their allegiance to. After all, what they publish is an opinion poll and they are very much entitled to their opinion.

UK Leadership Debate

Warning:A very long post.

The fact that it took 50 years for Britain to ape the American style of debates could explain the hype that surrounded the first of the three live leadership debate that was telecast in ITV1 at prime time last night. Not withstanding the traditional campaigning, it is everyone’s knowledge that a televised debate would make or break the electoral prospect of those aspiring for No. 10 Downing Street. It is easy for the Opposition to put the incumbent Prime Minister on the mat and if there is one way the graph would go for the incumbent, it is South. That is the reason why no incumbent Prime Minister has ever agreed for such a debate in the past. Probably, that is the reason why Gordon Brown agreed for the debate, as he might have been confident that his graph can not go any further down, as it is already at the rock bottom.

All through the day, it was evident that the news channels struggled to balance the coverage of unprecedented air space closure in Britain due to volcanic eruption in Iceland and the preparations leading to the debate that happened in Manchester over domestic policy. The format and the rules for the debate, that include – no clapping, no laughing (from the audience) had been agreed long ago after months of negotiations. In any other general election, like the previous one in 2005 or the one before in 2001, a three way debate would have been sneered at for it has always been Labour or Conservatives who mattered. But this election is different. Very different that there is a distinct possibility of the electorate returning a hung parliament on May 6. So, for the first time in about 65 years, the performance and the prospects of Liberal Democrats assumes significance. Liberal Democrat leader Nick Clegg must have been happy to be placed in par with the other contenders Gordon Brown and David Cameron.

While we have the House of Commons, where the above mentioned leaders battle it out passionately week after week, there are other players (other MPs) who play their role there. In case of these debates, the leaders are on their own, at least after the telecast starts and it becomes a matter of personality and image. In terms of substance, we know very well their policies (or the lack of it), as we have their manifestoes on hand and in any case, all the parties have been campaigning for weeks now. So, it was all a matter of who came out on top – not on substance, but on style.

Pre-prepared questions from the audience ranged from immigration, economy, NHS, crime, education, political reform, social care etc – covering almost all of the domestic issues. There were complaints from the parties in Scotland and Wales that most of these topics didn’t matter to them. I wonder why. David Cameron was placed at the centre, Gordon Brown to his left and Nick Clegg to Cameron’s right. All three gentlemen in question were allowed to make an opening statement, before taking questions from the audience. Cameron used his opening address to say he was ‘extremely sorry’ for the MP’s expenses scandal, one of the most forthright apologies offered by a politician.

Initially, the debate was more formal and very diplomatic. However, informality was injected soon enough and all three began referring to their rivals by their first names. Brown drew the first blood by attacking Cameron saying ‘This is not question time David, this is answer time’ and Cameron replied back with the answers that Brown demanded. Being an incumbent is not easy. That too, having to defend in a single night, all your actions of the past thirteen years is no easy task and that is what Brown faced. Very often, he was in a position to defend what he did rather than offering the electorate what he would do if he is elected. Having said that, Gordon Brown was better than his usual self. He is one person who will bore you to death with his speech reeling of all the statistics and presenting them in the most uninteresting way possible. Thanks to whoever briefed him, he was quite quite ok, managed a decent smile and came out a lot better than what was expected of him. After all, he is not Tony Blair.

On the first question about immigration, an issue on which Labour has failed miserably Cameron scored convincingly. Conservative policy is to put a cap on the numbers coming in, although he didn’t give any figure, as pointed out by Brown. Nick Clegg’s idea is to introduce a region based system, where the immigrants will be able to work only in a certain region of the country. The idea, although looks great on paper will be more cumbersome to implement and would end up in bureaucratic chaos. Although he said that other countries like Canada and Australia has successfully implemented similar policies, he was making an undue comparison.

From there on, for every issue both of them were repeating what was there in their respective party’s manifesto. Cameron used every opportunity to attack Brown on the proposed NI increase and made sure that the viewers didn’t forget about it by repeating it very often. Clegg kept driving home the point that Lib Dems were the real alternative. At one point where Brown and Cameron were going for each other’s jugular, I had a feeling that they were pointedly ignoring Nick Clegg, making the third party seem more irrelevant. But Clegg was smart enough to say ‘The more they attack each other, they are very much the same and we are very different’. The body language of Clegg deserves a mention here. He was totally at ease, glad to watch the ‘other two’ fight, looked straight into the camera, choosing to address the millions of viewers in the TV rather than the 200+ at the studios and at the same time came to the debate having done his homework well.

From the way Brown was wooing Clegg by saying ‘I agree with you Nick’ (I lost count of the number of times he said that), it was clear that the Prime Minister was wooing Lib Dems, but it was funny to see Clegg showing disinterest in being seen along with Brown. When Cameron reeled out promise after promise stopping only short of a free trip to moon (A futute Tory government will cut deficit, stop NI increase that will save NHS £200m, get adequate cancer drugs, order new helicopters for the forces and what not), Brown was clearly sleeping. It was Clegg who caught Cameron and stopped him on his tracks: ‘David, Lets be honest. You can do one of them, but not all of what you are saying’. I am very surprised that Cameron allowed himself to be caught off guard like this. A man who is at the striking distance of making it big squandered the opportunity. If at all Clegg wanted to make Liberal Democrat more relevant, he has to convert the erstwhile Labour voters to Lib Dems. The best way to do that is to attack Conservatives more and that is precisely what he did.

All the three men in question had a story to tell based on their experience – like Cameron met a Black man in Plymouth who was worried with mass immigration, Clegg had his shock at a hospital ward finding them empty due to lack of doctors and Brown had something similar to say. Midway through the debate, it looked a little boring if not much. The debate went over by few minutes beyond the scheduled 90 minutes and all three were allowed to make a closing statement. Clegg scored here by spelling out at least half a dozen names of those who asked the questions, thanked them and ended the debate by saying: ‘There is an alternative to the two old parties. I know many of you think that all politicians are just the same, I hope I’ve tried to show you that that just isn’t true.’

In a nut shell, Brown tries to instill the fear factor in the public about the Tories wrecking the fragile recovery. Cameron on the other hand, tried to cash in on the failure of Labour for the last thirteen years and instead of being realistic tried to promise the moon. Clegg, who was clearly an underdog, came out on top having set no expectations at the beginning and cashing on ‘we are different from the other two’ theme.

Listening to Clegg for the first time, he does appear to make sense on lot of things. The man with the golden tie far exceeded my expectations, basically because I didn’t have any on him. Now that he has raised the bar for himself, it would be interesting to see how he performs next Thursday. If Cameron is serious about moving into No. 10 Downing Street, he has to seal the deal with the electorate at the earliest. After what was seen yesterday, that is by no means an easy task.


Most of the twitterati in UK talk about the volcanic ash that has caused the British airports to be shut down for the day. Seems that the ash might even over shadow the supposedly historic Leader’s Debate today.

Did any one notice the name of the area where that volcano is located. It is Eyjafjallajoekull. Now, I want all of those who said that my name sounds very complicated to be lined up and made to pronounce Eyjafjallajoekull. BBC Magazine has even got a pronounciation guide for this name.

இனிய பà¯?தà¯?தாணà¯?டà¯? நலà¯?வாழà¯?தà¯?தà¯?கà¯?களà¯?


இனிய சிதà¯?திரைதà¯? திரà¯?நாளà¯? நலà¯?வாழà¯?தà¯?தà¯?கà¯?களà¯?


இனிய அமà¯?பேதà¯?கரà¯? தின நலà¯?வாழà¯?தà¯?தà¯?கà¯?களà¯?

Choose one or the other depending on which side of the political spectrum you are in.

Dhoni’s Gaffe

Watched Suresh Raina’s rampage in the one-sided match between CSK and KKR. Talking to Harsha Bhogle at the presentation ceremony, I *think* I heard him saying something like ‘..During the first IPL, I used to ride the bike in the night. When I go near the red-light areas, people will talk to me in Tamil…..’. I am not sure if I heard it right though. I believe he meant ‘stopping at the traffic signals on red’, but this was an interesting faux pas.

btw, did he really say it that way or is it just me thinking wild?

கிடà¯?டதà¯?தடà¯?ட 16 வரà¯?டஙà¯?களà¯?கà¯?கà¯? à®®à¯?னà¯?பà¯?, நானà¯? கலà¯?லூரியிலà¯? படிதà¯?தà¯?கà¯? கொணà¯?டிரà¯?நà¯?த காலமà¯?. எனà¯? அபà¯?பாவினà¯? பிறநà¯?த நாளà¯?கà¯?காக எமà¯?.எஸà¯?.சà¯?பà¯?பà¯?லகà¯?à®·à¯?மி பாடிய பாடலà¯?களà¯? அடஙà¯?கிய கேசடà¯? ஒனà¯?றை பரிசளிபà¯?பதென à®?கமனதாக à®®à¯?டிவà¯? செயà¯?யபà¯?படà¯?டà¯?, நானà¯? கடைகà¯?கà¯? செனà¯?றேனà¯?. கடைகà¯?காரரà¯? காணà¯?பிதà¯?த கேசடà¯?டà¯?களிலà¯? எதைதà¯? தேரà¯?நà¯?தேடà¯?பà¯?பதென ஒரே கà¯?ழபà¯?பமà¯?. எனகà¯?கà¯? தெரிநà¯?த ஒனà¯?றிரணà¯?டà¯? பாடலà¯?களà¯? எதà¯?வà¯?à®®à¯? அதிலிலà¯?லை. திடீரென ‘kapil’ எனà¯?à®± ராகதà¯?தினà¯? பெயரà¯? கணà¯?ணிலà¯? பட, எநà¯?த வித கà¯?ழபà¯?பமà¯?à®®à¯? இலà¯?லாமலà¯? அநà¯?த கேசடà¯?டையே வாஙà¯?கி வநà¯?தà¯? விடà¯?டேனà¯?. பிடிதà¯?த பாடà¯?டோ, ராகமோ இலà¯?லாவிடà¯?டாலà¯? எனà¯?ன, பிடிதà¯?த மனிதரினà¯? பெயரà¯? இரà¯?கà¯?கிறதே (நானà¯? கபிலà¯?தேவினà¯? அதி தீவிர ரசிகனà¯?), அதà¯? போதà¯?à®®à¯? எனà¯?à®± எணà¯?ணமà¯? தானà¯?.

வீடà¯?டிறà¯?கà¯? வநà¯?தாலà¯?, ‘à®?யோ, ஞானசூனà¯?யமà¯? ஞானசூனà¯?யமà¯?. காபி (kapi) ராகதà¯?தை தவறà¯?தலா kapil-னà¯? போடà¯?à®°à¯?கà¯?கானà¯?. அதà¯? கூடதà¯? தெரியாம இவனெலà¯?லாமà¯? போயà¯? கேசடà¯? வாஙà¯?க போறானà¯?’ எனà¯?à®±à¯? வெறà¯?பà¯?பேறà¯?றினாளà¯? எனà¯? தஙà¯?கை. சரி போகடà¯?டà¯?à®®à¯?. எனà¯?ன செயà¯?வதà¯?. காபியோ, கபிலோ – அநà¯?த கேசடà¯? எனà¯? அபà¯?பாவினà¯? பிறநà¯?த நாளà¯? பரிசானதà¯?.

இபà¯?பொழà¯?தà¯? இநà¯?த பிளாஷà¯?பேகà¯? எதறà¯?கà¯?கெனà¯?றாலà¯? – இபà¯?படிபà¯?படà¯?ட பேரறிவà¯? படைதà¯?த நானà¯?, கà¯?டà¯?à®®à¯?பதà¯?தினரோடà¯? நேறà¯?à®±à¯? மிலà¯?டனà¯? கீனà¯?ஸà¯? நகரிலà¯? நடநà¯?த ஒரà¯? கரà¯?நாடக இசைகà¯? கசà¯?சேரிகà¯?கà¯? செனà¯?றிரà¯?நà¯?தேனà¯?. எனகà¯?கà¯?தà¯? தானà¯? இமà¯?மாதிரி ஒரà¯? அறிவே தவிர, எனà¯? மனைவி இதிலà¯? எனகà¯?கà¯? நேரà¯? எதிரà¯? (இதிலà¯?மா?). 12 வரà¯?டஙà¯?களாக வீணை வாசிகà¯?ககà¯? கறà¯?à®±à¯?கà¯? கொணà¯?டிரà¯?பà¯?பதாலà¯? நிசà¯?சயமà¯? காபிகà¯?கà¯?à®®à¯?, கபிலà¯?கà¯?கà¯?à®®à¯? விதà¯?தியாசமà¯? கணà¯?டà¯?பிடிதà¯?தà¯? விடà¯?வாரà¯?. மனைவி கசà¯?சேரிகà¯?கà¯? போக விரà¯?பà¯?பபà¯?பட, மனைவியினà¯? காரà¯? ஓடà¯?டà¯?னரான எனகà¯?கà¯?à®®à¯? சேரà¯?தà¯?தà¯? டிகà¯?கெடà¯? வாஙà¯?கபà¯?படà¯?டதà¯?.

à®®à¯?தலிலà¯? ஜà¯?யோதà¯?சனா ஸà¯?ரீகாநà¯?தà¯? அவரà¯?களினà¯? வயலினà¯? இசை. ஒரà¯? மணி நேரமà¯? செனà¯?றதே தெரியாமலà¯? மிக அரà¯?மையாக வாசிதà¯?தாரà¯?. அவரதà¯? வயலினà¯? இசைகà¯?கà¯? போடà¯?டியாக சà¯?சீநà¯?தரா அவரà¯?களினà¯? மிரà¯?தஙà¯?கமà¯?. வாயைபà¯? பிளநà¯?தà¯? கேடà¯?டà¯?கà¯? கொணà¯?டிரà¯?நà¯?தோமà¯?. மிகவà¯?à®®à¯? இனிமையான ஒரà¯? மணி நேரமதà¯?.

அடà¯?தà¯?ததà¯? சஞà¯?சயà¯? சà¯?பà¯?பிரமணியமà¯?. இவரைபà¯? பறà¯?றி நானà¯? கேளà¯?விபà¯? படà¯?டிரà¯?கà¯?கிறேனே தவிர, இவரà¯? பாடியதைகà¯? கேடà¯?டதிலà¯?லை. அதà¯? எனà¯? தà¯?ரதிரà¯?à®·à¯?டமà¯? என நேறà¯?à®±à¯? பà¯?ரிய வைதà¯?தாரà¯?. எனà¯?னை மாதிரி ஆடà¯?களைகà¯? கூட சà¯?மாரà¯? மூனà¯?à®±à¯? மணி நேரமà¯? மெயà¯?மறகà¯?கசà¯? செயà¯?தà¯? விடà¯?டாரà¯? எனà¯?றாலà¯? அதà¯? சஞà¯?சயினà¯? திறமைகà¯?கà¯? ஒரà¯? சிறிய சானà¯?à®±à¯?. ‘கà¯?ழலினிதà¯? யாழினிதà¯? எனà¯?பரà¯? தமà¯? மகà¯?களà¯? மழலை சொலà¯? கேளாதவரà¯?’ எனà¯?à®± கà¯?றளை வைதà¯?தà¯? அவரà¯? பாடிய ராகமாலிகை அடà¯?டகாசமà¯?. ‘கà¯?ழலினிதà¯? யாழினிதà¯? எனà¯?பரà¯? சஞà¯?சயà¯? கà¯?ரலà¯? கேளாதவரà¯?’ என சொலà¯?ல வேணà¯?டà¯?à®®à¯? போல இரà¯?நà¯?ததà¯?. பகà¯?க வாதà¯?தியஙà¯?களான வயலினà¯?à®®à¯?, மிரà¯?தஙà¯?கமà¯?à®®à¯? மிக அரà¯?மையாக ஈடà¯? கொடà¯?தà¯?தனரà¯?. மேலà¯?à®®à¯? பல அறà¯?பà¯?தமான பாடலà¯?களைபà¯? பாடினாலà¯?à®®à¯?, பல தெலà¯?ஙà¯?கà¯? கீரà¯?தà¯?தனைகளினà¯? வரிகளையோ, ராகஙà¯?களையோ எனà¯?னாலà¯? நினைவà¯?கூற à®®à¯?டியாமலிரà¯?பà¯?பதà¯? எனà¯? பிழையே.

டிசமà¯?பரà¯? சீசனிலà¯? செனà¯?னையிலà¯? நடகà¯?கà¯?à®®à¯? கசà¯?சேரிகளà¯?கà¯?கà¯? செலà¯?பவரà¯?களà¯?, அஙà¯?கà¯?ளà¯?ள காணà¯?டீனà¯? பறà¯?றி மறகà¯?காமலà¯? சொலà¯?வதà¯?ணà¯?டà¯?. அதà¯? போல நேறà¯?றைய கசà¯?சேரி இடைவேளையிலà¯? சாபà¯?பிடà¯?ட மசாலà¯? வடையைபà¯? பறà¯?றி இஙà¯?கà¯? கà¯?றிபà¯?பிடாவிடà¯?டாலà¯?, அதà¯? சாமி கà¯?தà¯?தமாகிவிடà¯?à®®à¯?.

நேறà¯?à®±à¯? ரசிகரà¯?களà¯? எழà¯?திகà¯? கேடà¯?ட கேளà¯?விகளà¯?கà¯?கà¯? (நகைசà¯?)சà¯?வையாக(வà¯?à®®à¯?) பதிலà¯? தநà¯?தாரà¯? சஞà¯?சயà¯?. கà¯?ழநà¯?தைகளà¯?கà¯?கà¯? எவà¯?வாறà¯? இசைபà¯? பயிறà¯?சி அளிகà¯?க வேணà¯?டà¯?à®®à¯? எனà¯?பதà¯? போனà¯?à®± கேளà¯?விகளà¯? இரà¯?நà¯?தாலà¯?à®®à¯?, ‘அடானா ராகதà¯?தை அரகà¯?கோனதà¯?தà¯?ல பà¯?டிசà¯?சà¯?, காமà¯?போதி-ய கோயமà¯?பà¯?தà¯?தூரà¯?ல பà¯?டிசà¯?சà¯? தொடையில தடà¯?டினா வரà¯?றதà¯? ஸà¯?ரீபà¯?ரியாவா, பானà¯?பà¯?ரியாவா’ போனà¯?à®± à®®à¯?கà¯?கியமான கேளà¯?விகளை à®®à¯?னà¯? வரிசையிலà¯? உடà¯?காரà¯?நà¯?திரà¯?நà¯?த டà¯?பà¯?கà¯?கà¯? உடà¯?பட யாரà¯?à®®à¯? கேடà¯?காததà¯? வரà¯?தà¯?தமான விஷயமà¯? தானà¯?.

கசà¯?சேரி ஆரமà¯?பிகà¯?கà¯?à®®à¯? à®®à¯?னà¯?னரà¯? எனகà¯?கà¯? இரà¯?நà¯?த ஒரà¯? பெரà¯?à®®à¯? கவலை – எனà¯? à®?நà¯?தà¯? வயதà¯? மகனைபà¯? பறà¯?றியதà¯?. எஙà¯?கே பொறà¯?மையிலà¯?லாமலà¯? வெளிநடபà¯?பà¯? செயà¯?தà¯? விடà¯?வானோ, அதனாலà¯? நாஙà¯?களà¯?à®®à¯? பாதியிலேயே வெளியேற வேணà¯?டியிரà¯?கà¯?கà¯?மோ எனà¯?à®±à¯? மனதை ஒரà¯?வாறà¯? திடபà¯?படà¯?தà¯?தி வநà¯?திரà¯?நà¯?தோமà¯?. நிகழà¯?சà¯?சி à®®à¯?டியà¯?à®®à¯? வரை பொறà¯?மையாக உடà¯?காரà¯?நà¯?தà¯? தாளமà¯? போடà¯?டà¯?கà¯? கேடà¯?டà¯?கà¯? கொணà¯?டிரà¯?நà¯?தானà¯?. ஒரà¯? பாடà¯?டிலà¯?, தனி ஆவரà¯?தà¯?தனதà¯?திலà¯? வயலினà¯? வரதராஜனà¯? பினà¯?னியெடà¯?தà¯?தà¯?கà¯? கொணà¯?டிரà¯?கà¯?க, இவனà¯? சஞà¯?சயைகà¯? காணà¯?பிதà¯?தà¯? “à®?னà¯?பா அநà¯?த மேனà¯? பாட மாடà¯?டேனà¯?கறாரà¯?? பாடà¯?டà¯? மறநà¯?தà¯? போசà¯?சா?”. 🙂

இறà¯?தியிலà¯? திரà¯?மதி லகà¯?à®·à¯?மி (இநà¯?த நிகழà¯?சà¯?சியை வழஙà¯?கிய தà¯?வனி அமைபà¯?பினà¯? நானà¯?கà¯? அமைபà¯?பாளரà¯?களà¯?ளà¯? ஒரà¯?வரà¯?) ‘இதà¯? ஒரà¯? பரவசமான அனà¯?பவமà¯?’ எனகà¯? கà¯?றிபà¯?பிடà¯?டாரà¯?. Yes, it was a bliss. It truly was. Thanks Dhwani MK and Sanjay. It was an evening well made.

இநà¯?த நிகழà¯?சà¯?சிகà¯?கà¯? செனà¯?றதிலà¯? இனà¯?னொரà¯? விஷயமà¯?à®®à¯? தெரிநà¯?ததà¯?. எஙà¯?களà¯? வீடà¯?டரà¯?கிலேயே இனà¯?னà¯?à®®à¯? சில வாரஙà¯?களிலà¯? மறà¯?à®±à¯?மொரà¯? இசை நிகழà¯?சà¯?சி நடகà¯?கவிரà¯?கà¯?கிறதà¯?. அதà¯? மடà¯?டà¯?மனà¯?றி நாஙà¯?களà¯? வசிகà¯?கà¯?à®®à¯? பகà¯?தியிலà¯?, நிறைய தமிழà¯? கà¯?டà¯?à®®à¯?பஙà¯?களà¯? இரà¯?கà¯?கிறரà¯?களாமà¯?. அதà¯? பறà¯?றி பிறிதொரà¯? பதிவிலà¯?.


Someone whom I was following in Twitter went on like ‘At the end of the first quarter in 2010, I have completed x,y,z of what I had planned and couldn’t do a, b. Not bad. In the next three months, I am aiming to complete m, n, o etc’. In short, she seem to set herself certain goals for every quarter and yesterday being the end of Q1 2010, she was reviewing those. Some were professional goals and some of them were personal ones.

Reading that tweet made me realised what I haven’t been doing all these days. Once upon a time, I was also very organised and meticulous in doing things. I had the drive in me to complete certain things (even if it were some silly, little hobby) every month and whatever mundane job I was doing, I was enjoying myself as I had several things to look forward to, besides work. Don’t know where, but at some point in time, I think I fell by the wayside.

At the moment, although I should be able to channelise my thoughts and energy in to several productive things, I am being a lazy bum drenched in discontent about everything and knowingly wasting my potential. This is partly due to certain stumbling blocks that are way beyond my control and partly due to my laziness, which easily forms a vicious circle – causing more harm. I know that I have to push myself out of this rut and do what I enjoy and what is good for me, but they are easier said than done.

To start with, let me stop ranting and try to organise myself a little better. Let me set myself some real, purposeful goals and see if I can achieve them. Let me remind myself that I am not worse off than many people and not feel bad about what I am. Let me wish you a very happy easter, to those who celebrate.